Social media kills me. I say that all the time and yet I am still on it 24/7 like every person in this world. But when I see a post about: an engagement, a pregnancy announcement, wedding photos, photos of a child’s birth, anniversaries, a new home announcement. It messes with my mind and it […]
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I Let Depression & Anxiety Win.
It took me awhile to find the right words to express what occurred in the past week. I’m still trying to find the words… It feels like a blur, but at the same time I can recall every feeling that occurred. Those feelings, mann. I’m still struggling to find the right words to explain how […]
When you give up on someone because they gave up on you.
I’m so tired of cutting ties and any connections with those I used to be close with. It’s happened so many times with so many people. I come across photos and memories with people. And thinking about how my relationship with them isn’t the same anymore breaks my heart. Because I’m tired of caring more […]
I’m OVER thinking.
In the past 2 nights, I have slept a total of 6, quite possibly 6.5 hours 6 hours of sleep in 48 hours. I’m OVER overthinking. These past couple of weeks have been filled with: stress, more stress, unexpected occurrences, deadlines and no rest. With all of that happening, I started to get anxious. Which […]
That is depression.
There were days when all I wanted to do was be in my room, on my bed crying. I couldn’t leave, I didn’t want to leave. In my second year of college… I would drive all the way to school, drive around trying to get parking. And before the class even started, I would get […]
I can’t do it today, I have depression.
Or some days, I feel like saying “I can’t do it today, I have too much anxiety”. What will happen? What will happen if I actually say these sentences. I don’t know and I don’t think I will ever know. Anxiety and depression don’t appear like valid excuses. It might be seen as laziness to […]
My life should be entitled “Wrong Timing”.
I probably have written something similar to this subject many times. But it’s always been like this and it’s so frustrating. Missed opportunities have happened. Plans have overlapped and sometimes they cancel each other out. & overall it just ends with stress and frustration. I know that I can’t control events from happening, being delayed […]
Preoccupied Symptoms.
As much as I’m worried about everything else in my life, I am overly cautious and/or preoccupied with everything that is involved with my physical health. I can’t tell if certain symptoms are really occurring in or to my body…. OR if my mind is tricking me. Sometimes I don’t do anything about it, then […]
5 more minutes.
As I’m waiting for the new year to start in my room watching the New Years Eve special, I’m thinking about how I used to think about New Years Eve. I heard somewhere when I was younger that how you spend your New Years Eve is how you’re going to spend the year. So if […]
The End of the Hardest Year.
I never really realized how difficult this year was until this morning. When the worker at Trader Joes kept on asking me questions about how my year was and “What was your favorite part of the year?” It threw me off… I could not think of any moment that was memorable. I could not think […]
