This is something that has taken me almost 10 years to accept. I’m still in the process of trying to accept this.
Having depression comes with a mind full of bad thoughts & feelings that are floating around your mind.
It stays there. You keep it there and keep silent about it.
It stays there until you voice it out loud.
I have gone to many people about my “problems”.
I have heard many many times, “if you need me, just call or text me anytime”.
They don’t mean it.
There have been many times where I have thought about ending my life…where I have called and texted those individuals that say “if you need me, just call or text me anytime”….AND no response.
YOU CAN’T MAKE PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU.
I had people ignore my texts about my “problems” and once I talk about something else, they immediately respond.
I had others just stop talking to me completely.
I had people say to me that I’m being “selfish” and that I need to “stop thinking about it”.
I had people BLAME me for my own problems.
I had people make jokes about my problems. I’ve listened to them many times and then once I speak up about my problems, its just jokes to poke fun at.
If I had a really bad day and my depression is so bad, I had people completely ignore me. Like I’m not there and I don’t exist.
I had people give me “advice” on depression. But they don’t understand. Depression can only be understood by people with depression.
I just wish I had one person. Just one person that can just be there for me 24/7. They don’t have to be there physically. But I just wish they could just say, “I don’t know what you’re going through. But, I will be there for you”.
If you know someone with depression, just be there for them. PLEASE.