You can’t make people care about you.

This is something that has taken me almost 10 years to  accept. I’m still in the process of trying to accept this.

Having depression comes with a mind full of bad thoughts & feelings that are floating around your mind.

It stays there. You keep it there and keep silent about it.

It stays there until you voice it out loud.

I have gone to many people about my “problems”.

I have heard many many times, “if you need me, just call or text me anytime”.

They don’t mean it.

There have been many times where I have thought about ending my life…where I have called and texted those individuals that say “if you need me, just call or text me anytime”….AND no response.

YOU CAN’T MAKE PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU.

I  had people ignore my texts about my “problems” and once I talk about something else, they immediately respond.

I had others just stop talking to me completely.

I had people say to me that I’m being “selfish” and that I need to “stop thinking about it”.

I had people BLAME me for my own problems.

I had people make jokes about my problems. I’ve listened to them many times and then once I speak up about my problems, its just jokes to poke fun at.

If I had a really bad day and my depression is so bad, I had people completely ignore me. Like I’m not there and I don’t exist.

I had people give me “advice” on depression. But they don’t understand. Depression can only be understood by people with depression.

I just wish I had one person. Just one person that can just be there for me 24/7. They don’t have to be there physically. But I just wish they could just say, “I don’t know what you’re going through. But, I will be there for you”.

If you know someone with depression, just be there for them. PLEASE.

Read this:

http://www.attn.com/stories/3548/stephen-fry-depression?utm_source=nevschulman&utm_medium=fbpost&utm_campaign=influencer 

-Mel