How does it feel to be happy?

I lost that feeling.

I don’t remember how it feels to be truly happy. It’s been too long.

I keep on thinking about the times last year when I had moments of true happiness. There were many great moments of true happiness.

I haven’t felt a moment of happiness this year.

And as the days and months pass even more, I’m starting to forget how it feels to be happy.

Sure, I may: smile, laugh at a joke or seem like I’m having a good time. But, I haven’t genuinely felt HAPPY in a long time.

I want to feel better. But, it’s hard. It’s so hard.

The feeling that I feel or have felt for months is unexplainable. I can’t find the words to express how I feel.

And the worst thing is that I DON’T FEEL LIKE MYSELF.

I lost myself.

I turn 27 soon…it’ll be 12-13 years of feeling this way.

 

How does it feel to be happy?

-Mel

 

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