I lost that feeling.
I don’t remember how it feels to be truly happy. It’s been too long.
I keep on thinking about the times last year when I had moments of true happiness. There were many great moments of true happiness.
I haven’t felt a moment of happiness this year.
And as the days and months pass even more, I’m starting to forget how it feels to be happy.
Sure, I may: smile, laugh at a joke or seem like I’m having a good time. But, I haven’t genuinely felt HAPPY in a long time.
I want to feel better. But, it’s hard. It’s so hard.
The feeling that I feel or have felt for months is unexplainable. I can’t find the words to express how I feel.
And the worst thing is that I DON’T FEEL LIKE MYSELF.
I lost myself.
I turn 27 soon…it’ll be 12-13 years of feeling this way.
How does it feel to be happy?