It’s been 9 years since the age of when I wanted to die. when I was a teen, I always told myself that when I turned 18 or before I became legal that I would kill myself. I was not happy with my life and depressed. From 13-17, I convinced myself that the future was […]
Month: June 2016
I don’t know why I like to hurt myself.
Not physically, but mentally. When I can’t sleep at night, I always tend to search for people of my past (an ex or two, an old friend). And then I compare my current life to their current life. And I feel like shit. Because I feel like my life is not as fulfilling as their […]
The 2 things that matter most to people in their 20s
Originally posted on True Story:
This was my speech to the graduating class of 2016 at the University of California, San Diego, Revelle College. I just wanted to be real with them, and thought a lot about what I would’ve wanted to hear 10 years prior when I was sitting in their position. I’m so…
A series of uncontrollable and unfortunate events.
DAY TWO of being 27 and I’m already convinced that this year is going to be difficult. So much has gone on in just two days of being 27: sickness, hospital visit, no sleep and getting way too overwhelmed at work. I’m exhausted. I know that turning 27 didn’t have to do with all these […]
Day 1 of Year 27.
I tried. I tried to not let my feelings get hurt. I tried to at least care about my birthday or acknowledge that it’s my birthday. It didn’t feel like my birthday because I wasn’t happy. But, that’s the thing about depression. It doesn’t care if it’s a special event, if something good is happening […]
27 years.
27 years of existence. 27 years of struggle. 27 years of depression 27 years of fighting 27 years of taking it one day at a time. 27 years of anxiety. 27 years of worried thoughts. 27 years of sleepless nights. 27 years of survival. I wanted to end my life at 18. I […]
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