Not physically, but mentally.
When I can’t sleep at night, I always tend to search for people of my past (an ex or two, an old friend).
And then I compare my current life to their current life.
And I feel like shit. Because I feel like my life is not as fulfilling as their life APPEARS TO BE.
It messes with my head so much.
And I do this so many times when I can’t sleep at night which makes me have more trouble falling asleep.
I do this to myself.
I start listening to sad songs that make me cry.
BUT TONIGHT….
Then I started listening to songs that motivate me instead.
I need to remind myself of all the great things that I have accomplished and experienced in my life.
I am a teacher. I just watched my first pre-kindergarten class graduate yesterday. I graduated while working and having a full load of classes and internships. I graduated despite having depression and and anxiety.
I need to get away from social media. It’s all fake. Everyone will always show the best out of their lives.
I need to sleep.
-Mel
