The Essential Guide to Finding Yourself: Break down.

I need a break.

As much as I want to find myself…

I have become so overwhelmed and exhausted with everything in my life right now that I need a break from my life.

All I really want to do right now is just to get into my car and drive away. Drive anywhere, just far away from my existing life. And hopefully when I come back, I will find myself again.

I’m exhausted. Mentally, emotionally and physically. 

I haven’t taken a day off for myself since I started my job in February. I’ve only taken half days off for appointments and holidays off. But my day off for holidays are too busy celebrating that holiday.

And it’s not just taking a break. It’s taking care of myself. I’ve been neglecting myself lately. And that’s a big part in why I lost myself.

I just need to get away from here.

Away from this routine of working every day, doing the same things on Saturdays and Sundays. This routine is killing me and no matter how much I try to alter it, it still feels the same.

Away from working. Working at my job, working to make my family happy, working to keep myself busy to distract me from depression.

Away from everything in my life. So I can feel like I can breathe again, to clear my mind. My mind has been filled with so many thoughts that it’s keeping me from relaxing.

I need to get away from my life in order to find me again.

-mel

 

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2 Comments

  1. I can completely relate to your post! I too find everyday life overwhelming and feel that some time away on my own would help me to overcome this. I hope you manage to find the time to do this! I’m following you, I look forward to reading your future posts.

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  2. I can identify with what you’re saying – sometimes I think it would be great if time could just be paused so you can just sit back and break down, relax or whatever. Your life sounds extremely full on so you definitely need those moments for yourself. In my case I kind of miss the structure that work affords -I’m a TA so I have had 5 weeks off so far. One more week and I’ll be back to teaching. I think I’ve reached the point where I appreciate being given time to rest, but enough is enough now.

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