This week had its downs and ups, then it came down again.
As stated in my previous posts,
I had a pretty rough start to my week.
(BTW I started writing this on Saturday, but got so depressed that I’m finishing it on a Sunday).
I had my (official first) Back to School Night on Thursday.
I had nerves about it all week, but for some reason it didn’t turn into anxiety. I got nervous as it got closer to the time, because I had no clue what I was going to say. Also, I was worried that a parent was going to have a question that I didn’t know the answer too. And worst case scenario, a parent having concerns or upset about something.
But, it turned out to be the complete opposite.
All but 3 parents showed up. It was a pretty chill environment. They loved how our classroom looked like, they all seemed excited. I was NOT nervous, which says a lot because I hate talking in front of people. They all seemed pretty happy at the end of it. Parents stayed till 15 mins after talking to us. But they were all positive responses. They were all excited for homework, the class, etc.
I felt great.
I haven’t felt this great about myself in so long.
But then Friday came..
I had a great sleep…didn’t wake up in the middle of the night and slept around 10:30pm.
But I woke up feeling like I only had 2 hours of sleep.
I felt so exhausted, had a huge headache and felt like I could fall asleep at any moment.
I had no motivation. I did the easiest activity for my kids, because I didn’t want to do anything.
I thought it was because I was tired from getting everything ready for Back to School night the day before. Or maybe, I was getting sick again because of the weather change.
That whole Friday night, I had no appetite because I felt so nauseous.
That exhaustion, sleepiness, lack of appetite, headache and nauseous feeling extended its stay until Saturday and now Sunday.
It took me awhile to figure out why I was feeling this way.
Then I started feeling irritable. Every little thing is bothering me and it’s making my anxiety increase.
I went to refresh myself in physical symptoms of depression. Because I just felt like it was something more than a cold or sinus infection.
So I found out that I am greatly experiencing the physical symptoms of depression.
It makes sense.
This is what depression does.
I can’t really figure out what to say. Because I’m just so tired and not in the mood.
But I wanted to let you guys know about this.