I don’t feel like writing this right now. 

I don’t feel like writing this right now.

But I feel like I have to.

I have been feeling extremely anxious right now, well all day.

All day at work, I haven’t been social and have been keeping to myself. I didn’t want to talk to anyone.

Because I felt too anxious and felt like I was so close to a panic attack.

I woke up with a huge throbbing headache.

I felt like my entire body was in pain. My legs, shoulders, back, chest were all in pain.

My hands were shaky and my heart kept racing.

I don’t know what to do. It’s 3 hours since I left work and I’m still feeling those physical symptoms.

My mental symptoms is on a different level.

I can’t think. I felt out of it today. I couldn’t seem to focus on one thing at a time. I kept on going from one task to another and have that uneasy feeling that I forgot something. I was walking all over the place, not really knowing what I was doing.

My mind feels like it’s 10x faster in racing from one thought to another.

I feel like my headache is different from the physical pain I feel from the thoughts that are racing.

I don’t know what to do.

I just want to lay in bed all day & not go to work tomorrow.

It would be nice to call in sick because of my depression and anxiety.

But I can’t.

-Mel