By having anxiety and depression, I have to hide my emotions.
Because as I have said many times, no one wants to be around someone who is depressed. If you’re feeling down & others feel great, they don’t want to be around you and feel down too.
I don’t like having the thought of showing my feelings to others and have people judging me or giving me advice I didn’t ask for.
So I have to hide it.
Also I believe that strong emotions can have an effect on others.
For example, today my co-teacher seems like she’s in a pissed off mood. And I can feel it having an effect on me. I felt fine waking up, but as soon as I got to work, I just feel irritable because my co-teacher is in a bad mood.
I always try my best to give the appearance that life is good and that I’m content with life.
I want to provide positive vibes to others. So they can feel good too.
I know that it’s not good for my mental health to hold back my feelings and conceal them.
But honestly, I’m just a nice person.
I treat others on how I would want others to treat me.
I don’t want to share all my anxiety and feelings of depression to everyone. Because I don’t want others to feel this way.
I would never want anyone to feel the way I feel.
Have a great day.