Why I try to hide my emotions.

By having anxiety and depression, I have to hide my emotions.

Because as I have said many times, no one wants to be around someone who is depressed. If you’re feeling down & others feel great, they don’t want to be around you and feel down too.

I don’t like having the thought of showing my feelings to others and have people judging me or giving me advice I didn’t ask for.

So I have to hide it.

Also I believe that strong emotions can have an effect on others.

For example, today my co-teacher seems like she’s in a pissed off mood. And I can feel it having an effect on me. I felt fine waking up, but as soon as I got to work, I just feel irritable because my co-teacher is in a bad mood.

I always try my best to give the appearance that life is good and that I’m content with life.

I want to provide positive vibes to others. So they can feel good too.

I know that it’s not good for my mental health to hold back my feelings and conceal them.

But honestly, I’m just a nice person.

I treat others on how I would want others to treat me.

I don’t want to share all my anxiety and feelings of depression to everyone. Because I don’t want others to feel this way.

I would never want anyone to feel the way I feel.

Have a great day.

-Mel