I feel like I’ve been holding my breath waiting for something good to happen. And I just feel like I keep on getting knocked down and can’t breathe. I hate that I feel this way. I hate how no matter how hard I try or how hard I work to make my life better… I […]
Month: May 2018
How did things change so quickly?
I was looking at this photo montage video that I made myself for my 25th birthday. It was basically my life told in photos along with transitions and Coldplay playing in the background. From about 2004 until 2014. So many memories. So many moments of pure happiness. So many people that used to be part […]
When Depression makes you Angry.
My birthday is a major trigger. And I’m at that point pre-birthday where I’m angry. Angry at myself, angry at others because I’m angry at myself and angry at my life. I’m going to be another year older and the question comes up ” Was this how I pictured my life going into my 29th […]
My Birthday is a Trigger.
One of the realizations that I had while driving to work this morning was how my birthday is an anxiety trigger. It’s my birthday in 11 days. And as it gets closer and closer to the day, I get really anxious and start feeling the downward spiral that depression makes you feel. This happens every […]
I Survived the Day I Feared the Most.
It’s 9:45pm. On May 19th. I have been waiting/anxious for this day. My best friend got married. I am beyond excited for her and her new husband. As much as I’m excited for her to get married, at the same time I was getting a lot of anxiety about that day. I didn’t think that […]
Tomorrow.
There are times when stress and/or anxiety hits me at night before I get ready to calm my mind to sleep. Overthinking happens. Then leads to more overthinking and worrying. My heart starts beating fast.. Then all of a sudden it’s 1am, then 3am and 6am. Sometimes you need to tell your mind to stop. […]
I Don’t Talk.
It’s funny how one small sentence someone says or one thought… can lead to another thought and another… and all of a sudden I am completely devastated about my life and myself. Oh man. When I thought that my life couldn’t get any more chaotic, this week happened. I’m pretty sure I stated in my […]
Mental Health Awareness Month.
hi. It’s May. It is Mental Health Awareness Month. I’m trying to think of ways to spread the awareness of Mental Health for this month. But for now, I’m just going to write my own experiences and spread the awareness on social media. Not only it is mental health awareness month. It’s a very anxiety-filled […]
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