I could feel it today. Depression was creeping up into my life. Instead of fighting it, I embraced it. Because I knew that something was wrong and I just shrugged it off. I needed depression to come as weird as it sounds. Because I needed to come into terms with how I truly feel. Whenever […]
Month: June 2018
I fooled myself.
For a moment sometime in the past 2 weeks, I made myself believe that I was okay. I make everyone believe that I’m okay but I’m just fooling them. I fooled myself. I made myself believe that I was okay. But deep deep down in myself, there was my depression and anxiety just telling me […]
Bye Year 28.
Another tough year in the books. I didn’t go to Disneyland like I usually do. I wanted to relax on the days leading up to my birthday. I had so much anxiety/anxiety attacks/panic attacks/teeth clenching within the past 6 months that all I wanted for my birthday was not to feel anxious anymore. I […]
The place where I can breathe.
Whenever I just need a place to breathe and reflect I go to the little park down the street from my old house. In a huge community, this little park is so serene and so quiet. It’s my birthday in 2 days and before I overthink everything. Before I get upset about how I spent […]
Why? Why is it bad that I’m an introvert?
I hear so many times that I’m SHY, QUIET, DON’T TALK MUCH, KEEP TO MYSELF… in such a negative way. I had someone say at work that I was an introvert and thinks that’s the way I run my classroom. I don’t want to go into full detail because it just breaks me apart […]
I didn’t plan anything.
I didn’t plan anything for my birthday. And that says so much about my current mental state. I didn’t plan anything. I always go to Disneyland on or around my birthday. And it didn’t happen/ it’s not going to happen. I don’t have many people in my life to go with. And things happened. So […]
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