I want to go back to the time where I didn’t spend a majority of my night worrying.

What if…?

Did I forget this?

Did I make the wrong decision?

Did I do something wrong?

Why haven’t _____ responded?

And everything ending with the WORST POSSIBLE SCENARIOS PLAYING AND REPLAYING IN MY HEAD.

Why did this start happening? When did this start happening and how did escalate to this level?

It’s been intense lately. These last night thoughts.

It makes me feel incredibly anxious and makes me feel like that I’m not a great person.

These worst possible scenarios are horrible. These scenarios go to places that isn’t really possible but somehow in these scenarios.. they make sense.

I feel like I can never relax. My body has been so tense and I feel on edge a majority of the time. And I shouldn’t feel so tense at night when I’m trying to relax and sleep.

So when was the time that I didn’t have this problem going to sleep & when did these thoughts occur?

Because I want to fix that and go to sleep immediately with a peace of mind.

-Mel