New Changes & New Chances.

Oh hi.

It’s the start of a new chapter tomorrow.

I feel…I don’t know.

Everything just feels surreal. From the moment I got my start date, to working my last two weeks and working my last day at my other job. Quitting that job was something I wanted & needed in this past year, especially in the past 6 months. And now that it’s (finally) happened, I don’t know how to feel.

I am a tad bit nervous & anxious. I might start feeling anxious tomorrow morning. (I’m trying to not let it affect me right now, so I can sleep tonight). But feeling nervous for a new job is normal.

There are those few chances of a new start. Going to a new school. Moving to a new place. Moving to a new town. & Starting a new job.

Tomorrow is a new start, a blank slate.

I started my (now) previous job as a complete wreck. I was extremely nervous from the moment I walked in my first day and it showed tremendously. I was so nervous that I couldn’t talk & just stood there.

And then I was known as being “shy”, “introvert” and worst of all “quiet”. I became that girl. Well 3 years and 3 months later…I left not being shy or an introvert.

My previous job was a major transition for me. It was my first job that I applied for, with my degree. I went from working split shifts in a before/after school program to working a full on shift for 9 hours straight as a teacher. It was my first work experience as a teacher. It was my first real job that had benefits. Maybe that’s why I was a complete wreck that first day because it was a huge transition.

I don’t want to be that way in this new job.

After going deep into how I’m feeling. This unknown and surreal feeling reminds me of how I felt whenever I started a new internship. I had a lot of internships in many different places.

I wasn’t too nervous because it was something I HAD to do in order to graduate. I just didn’t know what to expect & I just did it.

I don’t know what to expect.

However, this transition is a little bit easier.

I’m not transitioning into a different position. But I’m transitioning into a new school, new but familiar curriculum, new director, new staff, new co-teacher, new kids.

It’s like my internships. I wasn’t transitioning in a different position, I was still a student. Every semester I would go into a new school, work with new teachers and new students.

Tomorrow.

I don’t want to put any pressure on myself to NOT be shy or quiet. Because then I’ll probably get anxious and end up being shy and stand there in the corner. I don’t want to put any pressure on myself to ACT like I’m outgoing and talk a lot because I might get too nervous and say something stupid.

I just want to go in and just do it.

No pressure. No overthinking.

I get a new change and a new chance tomorrow. But I just need to remember to be myself and not pressure myself.

Even though tomorrow is the first day at a new start, it still takes time to grow and succeed.

-Mel