*TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE*
I’m tired of getting no closure.
I can’t count the amount of times that I got left (aka ghosted) with no explanation. It just happened to me yet again with a guy that I was talking to. But this time, without any warning. He asked me to hang out over the weekend and then he ghosted me.
I’m left with so many questions & I never get the answers.
It’s not just with guys that I’ve talked to, it has happened with friends and my cousins.
They just don’t respond back & it’s been months up to years now.
I DO BLAME MYSELF.
These individuals are from different phases, stages, areas, years of my life.
And they all do the same thing. So it’s most likely, that it has to do with me.
It’s me & it’s my fault.
Honestly, I’ve been suicidal lately. (I’m safe, I’m not going to do it. I just want the pain to end).
I had suicidal thoughts, especially going into a dark depression on Saturday.
I have so much more to say, but my mind and body is so numb that I can’t find the right words.
I just wanted to say: CHECK UP ON EVERYONE. If you are close to them or not close. Say one nice thing to everyone you come across. Because you never know what they are going through.
Additionally, if you know someone that needs help. Please check up on them.
It’s so hard going through this alone.
That all the friends, guys and cousins who were part of my life…..left me (when they knew my struggles with depression and anxiety( and now I have no support and no one to go to. Which makes my struggles with mental health 1 million times harder.
“BE KIND FOR EVERYONE YOU MEET IS FIGHTING A HARD BATTLE”