There was a post I saw on Instagram (teachersfollowteachers).
And it said:
“I’M DOING TOO MUCH AND NOT ENOUGH”
And I have never related so much to a…. quote.
That’s how I feel about teaching and that’s how I feel about my life.
I have always felt that I wasn’t enough and that I’m not doing enough.
I’ve felt like I’m not good enough. To anyone in my life.
This is exactly how I feel about teaching. I’ve been a teacher for 5 years now.
It bugs me when someone says “You’re a teacher? How fun!”.
It’s not fun…
It’s hard.
I have to make sure (especially with the Pre K age) that I’m supporting their development. Preparing them for Kindergarten. Supporting their emotional, mental and physical health. Lately, I feel like I’ve been putting out fires within my class. I also have to observe them for any symptoms. I have 2 students with Autism and I have to support them in completely different ways. I have to communicate with parents. I have to observe them, and somehow create a “curriculum” for them. I have to document those learning opportunities (through daily instagram posts & writing documentation and presenting them in my classroom). Oh and thanks to COVID, I have to disinfect and clean….not one but two classrooms (my co-teacher’s classroom).
OH AND I HAVE TO DO THAT FOR 10-12 KIDS ON MY OWN. (because COVID…a partition was put in my classroom. My co-teacher and myself have our own “mini” class. So that less than 12 kids interact with each other).
I’M DOING THAT ON MY OWN.
I’M DOING TOO MUCH
&
IT’S NEVER ENOUGH.
-MEL
