There was a post I saw on Instagram (teachersfollowteachers).
And it said:
“I’M DOING TOO MUCH AND NOT ENOUGH”
And I have never related so much to a…. quote.
That’s how I feel about teaching and that’s how I feel about my life.
I have always felt that I wasn’t enough and that I’m not doing enough.
I’ve felt like I’m not good enough. To anyone in my life.
This is exactly how I feel about teaching. I’ve been a teacher for 5 years now.
It bugs me when someone says “You’re a teacher? How fun!”.
It’s not fun…
I have to make sure (especially with the Pre K age) that I’m supporting their development. Preparing them for Kindergarten. Supporting their emotional, mental and physical health. Lately, I feel like I’ve been putting out fires within my class. I also have to observe them for any symptoms. I have 2 students with Autism and I have to support them in completely different ways. I have to communicate with parents. I have to observe them, and somehow create a “curriculum” for them. I have to document those learning opportunities (through daily instagram posts & writing documentation and presenting them in my classroom). Oh and thanks to COVID, I have to disinfect and clean….not one but two classrooms (my co-teacher’s classroom).
OH AND I HAVE TO DO THAT FOR 10-12 KIDS ON MY OWN. (because COVID…a partition was put in my classroom. My co-teacher and myself have our own “mini” class. So that less than 12 kids interact with each other).
I’M DOING THAT ON MY OWN.
I’M DOING TOO MUCH
IT’S NEVER ENOUGH.