Literally & Mentally. Anxiety & Depression had made me freeze in certain situations and “run away” from my problems literally and mentally. There are many times at work when I get too overwhelmed and get anxious about a situation that I freeze and just move away to avoid it or try to block it from […]
Author: melalarcon
Symptoms Searching.
I hate this part of my anxiety. Where you accidentally do something or a random symptom appears and then all of a sudden, you research your symptoms and overthink. And then sometimes you think you’re going to lose your vision, going to have some virus or think you’re going to die. This just happened to […]
When your mental health affects your physical health.
Maybe it’s the stress. The stress that comes from daily life of dealing with work, financial stuff, relationships, etc. But when you add that unexpected worry about the smallest thing or feeling really down and want to lay in bed all day OR the opposite when you overthink everything about your life and can’t sleep […]
My Current State of Depression.
I don’t feel like talking. I don’t feel like moving. I want to just lay on the couch or stay in my room all day. I didn’t really want to eat. I just feel like the world is moving around me and I’m just there…numb. I did cry. I don’t know. I feel stuck in […]
I CAN’T FORGIVE THEM.
Last Christmas. I was in a different room away from my cousins and hundreds of other relatives on Christmas. I did try to be around my cousins. But as I stood near or next to them, the more I felt like I was unwanted. No one really talked to me or acknowledged that I was […]
When anxiety adds words to your thoughts.
So many things going on. I don’t know if I’m ready to share how I feel on the deepest feelings. But I just wanted to share/let out the thoughts in my head which makes me hate anxiety. I locked the door. I put the key back. But my mind and anxiety are just adding words […]
Depression sucks.
I held it in all day. The frustration, the anxiety, the moments of feeling depressed. I had to. I was at work. As soon as I turned right on the main street after leaving work. All the feelings that I held inside for 8 hours just exploded. I spent that 30ish min drive completely destroyed. […]
World Mental Health Day. Mental Health Awareness Day.
Hello. My name is Mel and I wanted to share my story. I am 29. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Depression. & recently I have been experiencing lots of anxiety. I didn’t know about Depression or Anxiety too much when I first started having symptoms when I was 14. I started having […]
When things are good…
I get scared. I will consistently say how horrible September was for me. Things just kept getting worse and worse. And when I had one ounce of positivity within me and around me, it was easily taken away by something stressful or frustrating. Then my mind can’t really focus. I keep on second-guessing, worrying and […]
Fighting the negative.
Last month was horrible. So many unexpected events, so many disappointing moments, so many moments of stress and anxiety. I was tired of it and I’m still tired of it. It felt like the days were long and the weeks felt longer. And I just felt trapped in this never-ending cycle of bad sh*t happening. […]
