I can’t sleep because all the anxiety I had being with relatives today. I was at a rehearsal and rehearsal dinner for my cousin’s wedding. I’m not part of the wedding. But since my parents are part of it, then I got to go. Same with the dinner. I walked into the venue. Dressed in […]
Category: mental health
My Mental Health is Getting Worse.
Hello there. It’s been awhile. I actually don’t remember when I last wrote a post. I’m at that point in the year, when I don’t know which year is worse ……2020 or 2021? I just keep on getting HIT with so many unexpected circumstances. And I just need a break. You think one week will […]
I’m Trying My Best.
I am not sure which year was worse 2020 or 2021 (and we’re only in March). I’m not shocked at the things that have happened to me, but I am disappointed. Every time I try to be positive and just deal with the things that have come my way. Life hits me with another obstacle. […]
ONE YEAR: Since everything changed.
March 13, 2020. I remember that day so distinctly. Prior to that day, I had seen what COVID did to everyone else in the world with: temperature checks, panic buying, lockdowns and quarantines. And that day…. was the day, when it came to my part of the world. We had a teacher development day on […]
I’m Fooling Myself.
I lied. I wrote a post this morning and basically deceived myself thinking that I’m okay. And going through all these obstacles is okay. And it’s not. Today was hard. And it was supposed to be an easy day. I got stuck in traffic, which we haven’t had traffic in the mornings for about a […]
Trying NOT to feel Guilty for Taking Care of Myself.
I called in Sick for tomorrow. I have been burnt out for the past couple of weeks. My body is exhausted. My mind is exhausted. I’ve been wanting to take a day off, but I felt like I was just making excuses to not take a day off. But the longer I waited, the more […]
I’m Sorry Mel.
I apologized to myself today. I had a really rough week at work. I’ve had rough weeks before, but this one tops them all. (Let’s put it this way: I’m about to lose my voice and I have two pimples. And I haven’t had pimples in years). Today, I just woke up and had a […]
& Not Enough.
There was a post I saw on Instagram (teachersfollowteachers). And it said: “I’M DOING TOO MUCH AND NOT ENOUGH” And I have never related so much to a…. quote. That’s how I feel about teaching and that’s how I feel about my life. I have always felt that I wasn’t enough and that I’m not […]
I DON’T KNOW ANYMORE.
(This will probably be a no-edit blog post because I’m tired). Last week was rough. During therapy, I was non-stop crying throughout the whole 50 minutes. I’ve hit rock bottom before and have been in a dark depression. But these past weeks (last week especially), I fell into such a dark place that I haven’t […]
I WANT A BREAK FROM MYSELF.
I think I posted awhile back about writing letters to people in my life, without actually sending it to them. It was a way to let out my feelings for someone and an outlet to express what I would like to tell someone. There are many reasons why I don’t send it. And basically, I […]
