2020….YUP. It just continues to surprise me. I started my therapy sessions on the 1st of July and I’ve had a session every week since then. In my previous experiences with therapy, I would either go to therapy every other week, then at least once a month. And overall, it would last 2-3 months. There […]
Category: mental health
Pain:Mental & Physical.
It has been a rough week. I was hit with some unexpected moments….then depression occurred. Followed by panic attacks. Followed by hitting rock bottom. Followed by suicidal thoughts. Followed by: nausea, upset stomach, migraines and forcing myself to eat. I cried so much. It was the type of crying when you feel your heart break. […]
Can We Just Be Honest?
We should be over this phase of playing games when we are in our THIRTIES. If you are in a relationship or dating someone and don’t want to be with them anymore, just be honest and tell them. Don’t “ghost” them/suddenly stop communicating. If you in a relationship and you notice your feelings decrease with […]
WHY AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH?
I actually had a pretty good week at work, was soo ready for a 3 day weekend & here I am crying…. I feel so depressed and I feel like crap. Last week, I talked about my relationships to my therapist. My relationships with: exes, friends, cousins, etc. As I talked about each type of […]
Finding the Positive in the Negative.
It’s finally August 1st. July was a f*cking hard month. Mentally, Physically and Emotionally. I turned the page on my calendar from July to August. A calendar where I write down one positive thing that happened in the day. If it was a hard day, I made myself find one positive thing that occurred. Many […]
I Deserve Better.
It’s 4am on a work day. I hate waking up in the middle of the night and not falling back asleep. But I guess 4am is the time for realizations. Yesterday was a very frustrating day at work. It was like, a tiny thing in the universe was out of sync and it made my […]
Anxious Thoughts While Feeling Sick During a Pandemic
Anxiety & COVID-19 are not a good mix. It doesn’t help that regular symptoms that I get are similar to symptoms of COVID-19. I’ve had headaches and migraines for years now. Anxiety always gives me shortness of breath. I commonly get sore throats. Today felt different waking up. I didn’t feel 100%. I felt 45%. […]
Trauma & Changes.
These past two weeks have been hard for me: emotionally, mentally and physically. My week off was far from relaxing and my week back was overwhelming. The very first day of my “vacation”, I decided to share my feelings towards this guy I’ve been talking to. I started to have feelings for him & I […]
3:47 A.M.
Oh here we are again.. It’s morning and the sun isn’t up yet. And I’ve been up for almost 2 hours. Out of everything that I experience with depression and anxiety, I hate insomnia the most. I’ve experienced insomnia even before I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. When I was younger, I would wake […]
T H E R A P Y
I’ve spent the first couple days of my vacation doing absolutely nothing. I’m so physically, mentally and emotionally drained from work and the other aspects of my life that cause anxiety and depression. So I’ve just been switching from the couch to my bed watching Netflix, Youtube or Disney +. I have a consultation with […]
