Oh hi. It’s the start of a new chapter tomorrow. I feel…I don’t know. Everything just feels surreal. From the moment I got my start date, to working my last two weeks and working my last day at my other job. Quitting that job was something I wanted & needed in this past year, especially […]
Category: mental health
Changes: LIFE GOES ON.
Tomorrow is the last day of another chapter in my book. When I got the email from my new job exactly 2 weeks ago, I had a whole mixture of emotions. And that mixture of emotions went up and down like a roller coaster these last two weeks. I would be sad about leaving my […]
(lack of) APPRECIATION & RECOGNITION.
As I’m starting my last week at this job… the words “APPRECIATION” and “RECOGNITION” are appearing in my head multiple times. As I was walking towards my classroom, someone told me “Did you change your mind?” I said no and then said, “Just know that you are appreciated”. I didn’t know I was appreciated because […]
Outside Influences & Second-Guessing.
I feel like a majority of my decisions in life have been influenced by the “opinions” of others. Mainly my mother, which I talk about a lot in therapy. So I won’t go into full details here. I feel so unsure and anxious when making decisions a lot because of these outside influences. I had […]
“WELL I’M DOING THIS FOR ME”.
It finally happened. I am leaving the job that I’ve been complaining about for the past months/year. As soon as I got the email that told me my start date. I immediately became anxious and overwhelmed. I have pictured in my mind (for months) about what would happen when I would put in my two […]
It finally happened.
I’m going back to therapy. & it couldn’t have started at the right time. This week, I’m having an immense amount of anxiety and I’m kind of scared of it. And I’m now realizing it’s a series of anxiety attacks. The trigger happened on Monday after a stressful and overwhelming last hour of my shift. […]
The Beginning. Of the (almost)End.
January of the new year has literally been a roller coaster of emotions. It’s almost the end of the month and I cannot even believe that all these crazy things happened in just a matter of weeks. I have two more days of this month and I don’t even know. This year, I wanted to […]
In that moment, I was just going to completely give up on everything.
Day 2 of the New Year and I am already convinced that this year will not be better than last year. It all started before 1:30am when I woke myself up from a nightmare. I had a nightmare that I was trapped in an escape house. Not an escape room but a house. And it […]
The End & The Beginning.
In the past couple of weeks, I have: started a blog post, stare at it, and exit out of it without finishing it or publishing it. It’s been rough, real rough. And I didn’t feel like expressing how I felt into words and just soaked in every raw emotion that I felt. It’s New Years […]
Running away.
Literally & Mentally. Anxiety & Depression had made me freeze in certain situations and “run away” from my problems literally and mentally. There are many times at work when I get too overwhelmed and get anxious about a situation that I freeze and just move away to avoid it or try to block it from […]
