In the past couple of weeks, I have: started a blog post, stare at it, and exit out of it without finishing it or publishing it. It’s been rough, real rough. And I didn’t feel like expressing how I felt into words and just soaked in every raw emotion that I felt. It’s New Years […]
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Symptoms Searching.
I hate this part of my anxiety. Where you accidentally do something or a random symptom appears and then all of a sudden, you research your symptoms and overthink. And then sometimes you think you’re going to lose your vision, going to have some virus or think you’re going to die. This just happened to […]
When anxiety adds words to your thoughts.
So many things going on. I don’t know if I’m ready to share how I feel on the deepest feelings. But I just wanted to share/let out the thoughts in my head which makes me hate anxiety. I locked the door. I put the key back. But my mind and anxiety are just adding words […]
Depression sucks.
I held it in all day. The frustration, the anxiety, the moments of feeling depressed. I had to. I was at work. As soon as I turned right on the main street after leaving work. All the feelings that I held inside for 8 hours just exploded. I spent that 30ish min drive completely destroyed. […]
World Mental Health Day. Mental Health Awareness Day.
Hello. My name is Mel and I wanted to share my story. I am 29. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Depression. & recently I have been experiencing lots of anxiety. I didn’t know about Depression or Anxiety too much when I first started having symptoms when I was 14. I started having […]
When things are good…
I get scared. I will consistently say how horrible September was for me. Things just kept getting worse and worse. And when I had one ounce of positivity within me and around me, it was easily taken away by something stressful or frustrating. Then my mind can’t really focus. I keep on second-guessing, worrying and […]
Fighting the negative.
Last month was horrible. So many unexpected events, so many disappointing moments, so many moments of stress and anxiety. I was tired of it and I’m still tired of it. It felt like the days were long and the weeks felt longer. And I just felt trapped in this never-ending cycle of bad sh*t happening. […]
Write it down.
I started to panic this morning, more like an hour ago. I was stressing out over getting paperwork and all the things I needed to get for my new job done. Then as I was driving to get errands done, more worries began appearing in my head. Then I began second-guessing my decision about the […]
Making the wrong decision?
Many people ask if they are making the right decision. I ask, AM I MAKING THE WRONG DECISION? So do you follow what your logical brain is telling you or do you follow your instincts ? With following what my last post said. I don’t know what to do with this job offer. […]
I don’t fight for myself.
I know that I deserve better than whatever my life gives me, but I don’t fight for it. I settle. I don’t bicker, complain, whine, get furious or fight with my words…out loud. It’s all in my head or in this blog. I am terrified of fighting for myself or defending myself. & my past […]
