Social media kills me. I say that all the time and yet I am still on it 24/7 like every person in this world. But when I see a post about: an engagement, a pregnancy announcement, wedding photos, photos of a child’s birth, anniversaries, a new home announcement. It messes with my mind and it […]
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I Let Depression & Anxiety Win.
It took me awhile to find the right words to express what occurred in the past week. I’m still trying to find the words… It feels like a blur, but at the same time I can recall every feeling that occurred. Those feelings, mann. I’m still struggling to find the right words to explain how […]
I’m OVER thinking.
In the past 2 nights, I have slept a total of 6, quite possibly 6.5 hours 6 hours of sleep in 48 hours. I’m OVER overthinking. These past couple of weeks have been filled with: stress, more stress, unexpected occurrences, deadlines and no rest. With all of that happening, I started to get anxious. Which […]
I can’t do it today, I have depression.
Or some days, I feel like saying “I can’t do it today, I have too much anxiety”. What will happen? What will happen if I actually say these sentences. I don’t know and I don’t think I will ever know. Anxiety and depression don’t appear like valid excuses. It might be seen as laziness to […]
My life should be entitled “Wrong Timing”.
I probably have written something similar to this subject many times. But it’s always been like this and it’s so frustrating. Missed opportunities have happened. Plans have overlapped and sometimes they cancel each other out. & overall it just ends with stress and frustration. I know that I can’t control events from happening, being delayed […]
Preoccupied Symptoms.
As much as I’m worried about everything else in my life, I am overly cautious and/or preoccupied with everything that is involved with my physical health. I can’t tell if certain symptoms are really occurring in or to my body…. OR if my mind is tricking me. Sometimes I don’t do anything about it, then […]
5 more minutes.
As I’m waiting for the new year to start in my room watching the New Years Eve special, I’m thinking about how I used to think about New Years Eve. I heard somewhere when I was younger that how you spend your New Years Eve is how you’re going to spend the year. So if […]
The End of the Hardest Year.
I never really realized how difficult this year was until this morning. When the worker at Trader Joes kept on asking me questions about how my year was and “What was your favorite part of the year?” It threw me off… I could not think of any moment that was memorable. I could not think […]
Unexpected Occurrences.
This year. Or should I say: these past 6 months have been unbelievably difficult. My requests for days off in the past 5 months have been due to: A sinus infection Going to the ER to help my mom My uncle’s funeral AN UPPER RESPIRATORY VIRAL INFECTION that lasted 3 days! A dentist appointment, then […]
The Thoughts That You Don’t Want to Keep.
Those thoughts. Those thoughts of awkwardness, embarrassing, cringey, “AHHH!”, “why did I do that”. The thoughts that make you upset. The thoughts that make you nervous and scared. The thoughts of past moments that you didn’t want to pop up in your mind. These are the thoughts that you don’t want to keep circling in […]
