I was looking at this photo montage video that I made myself for my 25th birthday. It was basically my life told in photos along with transitions and Coldplay playing in the background. From about 2004 until 2014. So many memories. So many moments of pure happiness. So many people that used to be part […]
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When Depression makes you Angry.
My birthday is a major trigger. And I’m at that point pre-birthday where I’m angry. Angry at myself, angry at others because I’m angry at myself and angry at my life. I’m going to be another year older and the question comes up ” Was this how I pictured my life going into my 29th […]
My Birthday is a Trigger.
One of the realizations that I had while driving to work this morning was how my birthday is an anxiety trigger. It’s my birthday in 11 days. And as it gets closer and closer to the day, I get really anxious and start feeling the downward spiral that depression makes you feel. This happens every […]
I Survived the Day I Feared the Most.
It’s 9:45pm. On May 19th. I have been waiting/anxious for this day. My best friend got married. I am beyond excited for her and her new husband. As much as I’m excited for her to get married, at the same time I was getting a lot of anxiety about that day. I didn’t think that […]
Tomorrow.
There are times when stress and/or anxiety hits me at night before I get ready to calm my mind to sleep. Overthinking happens. Then leads to more overthinking and worrying. My heart starts beating fast.. Then all of a sudden it’s 1am, then 3am and 6am. Sometimes you need to tell your mind to stop. […]
I Don’t Talk.
It’s funny how one small sentence someone says or one thought… can lead to another thought and another… and all of a sudden I am completely devastated about my life and myself. Oh man. When I thought that my life couldn’t get any more chaotic, this week happened. I’m pretty sure I stated in my […]
Mental Health Awareness Month.
hi. It’s May. It is Mental Health Awareness Month. I’m trying to think of ways to spread the awareness of Mental Health for this month. But for now, I’m just going to write my own experiences and spread the awareness on social media. Not only it is mental health awareness month. It’s a very anxiety-filled […]
Did I do something wrong?
Social media kills me. I say that all the time and yet I am still on it 24/7 like every person in this world. But when I see a post about: an engagement, a pregnancy announcement, wedding photos, photos of a child’s birth, anniversaries, a new home announcement. It messes with my mind and it […]
I Let Depression & Anxiety Win.
It took me awhile to find the right words to express what occurred in the past week. I’m still trying to find the words… It feels like a blur, but at the same time I can recall every feeling that occurred. Those feelings, mann. I’m still struggling to find the right words to explain how […]
When you give up on someone because they gave up on you.
I’m so tired of cutting ties and any connections with those I used to be close with. It’s happened so many times with so many people. I come across photos and memories with people. And thinking about how my relationship with them isn’t the same anymore breaks my heart. Because I’m tired of caring more […]
