Hey. I really wanted to write so many posts for Suicide Prevention Week. But my week was full of stress and anxiety attacks, so it never happened. It’s funny how it’s Suicide Prevention Week, but honestly I felt like getting away from here so badly this entire week. This morning  I was helping my parents […]


At some point within the last couple of days, I just felt like I was going to explode with the amount of thoughts circling around my head. I’m pretty sure that’s what my last post was all about. I wanted to spend this weekend (re)focusing. I watched the movie To All the Boys I’ve Loved […]

I fooled myself.

For a moment sometime in the past 2 weeks, I made myself believe that I was okay. I make everyone believe that I’m okay but I’m just fooling them. I fooled myself. I made myself believe that I was okay. But deep deep down in myself, there was my depression and anxiety just telling me […]

Bye Year 28.

  Another tough year in the books. I didn’t go to Disneyland like I usually do. I wanted to relax on the days leading up to my birthday. I had so much anxiety/anxiety attacks/panic attacks/teeth clenching within the past 6 months that all I wanted for my birthday was not to feel anxious anymore.  I […]