Early. I would get soo excited. Make big plans. Days before leading to my birthday and even after my birthday. Go on a trip. Or go to Disneyland. Go to concerts. Have family parties. Stay up until midnight. I would have high hopes. Then get disappointed. I was watching a video I MADE FOR MYSELF […]
Tag: mental health awareness month
Thanks for the music.
My 30th Birthday is coming up. And I wanted to end my last days of my 20s by listening to the music that helped me throughout my almost 30 years of life. I had different phases: An MTV PHASE that started with TLC. Then it turned into a long phase of POP music from watching […]
Depression sucks.
I held it in all day. The frustration, the anxiety, the moments of feeling depressed. I had to. I was at work. As soon as I turned right on the main street after leaving work. All the feelings that I held inside for 8 hours just exploded. I spent that 30ish min drive completely destroyed. […]
World Mental Health Day. Mental Health Awareness Day.
Hello. My name is Mel and I wanted to share my story. I am 29. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Depression. & recently I have been experiencing lots of anxiety. I didn’t know about Depression or Anxiety too much when I first started having symptoms when I was 14. I started having […]
When things are good…
I get scared. I will consistently say how horrible September was for me. Things just kept getting worse and worse. And when I had one ounce of positivity within me and around me, it was easily taken away by something stressful or frustrating. Then my mind can’t really focus. I keep on second-guessing, worrying and […]
Fighting the negative.
Last month was horrible. So many unexpected events, so many disappointing moments, so many moments of stress and anxiety. I was tired of it and I’m still tired of it. It felt like the days were long and the weeks felt longer. And I just felt trapped in this never-ending cycle of bad sh*t happening. […]
Write it down.
I started to panic this morning, more like an hour ago. I was stressing out over getting paperwork and all the things I needed to get for my new job done. Then as I was driving to get errands done, more worries began appearing in my head. Then I began second-guessing my decision about the […]
Making the wrong decision?
Many people ask if they are making the right decision. I ask, AM I MAKING THE WRONG DECISION? So do you follow what your logical brain is telling you or do you follow your instincts ? With following what my last post said. I don’t know what to do with this job offer. […]
I don’t fight for myself.
I know that I deserve better than whatever my life gives me, but I don’t fight for it. I settle. I don’t bicker, complain, whine, get furious or fight with my words…out loud. It’s all in my head or in this blog. I am terrified of fighting for myself or defending myself. & my past […]
Stay.
Hey. I really wanted to write so many posts for Suicide Prevention Week. But my week was full of stress and anxiety attacks, so it never happened. It’s funny how it’s Suicide Prevention Week, but honestly I felt like getting away from here so badly this entire week. This morning I was helping my parents […]
