I held it in all day. The frustration, the anxiety, the moments of feeling depressed. I had to. I was at work. As soon as I turned right on the main street after leaving work. All the feelings that I held inside for 8 hours just exploded. I spent that 30ish min drive completely destroyed. […]
Tag: mental health awareness week
World Mental Health Day. Mental Health Awareness Day.
Hello. My name is Mel and I wanted to share my story. I am 29. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Depression. & recently I have been experiencing lots of anxiety. I didn’t know about Depression or Anxiety too much when I first started having symptoms when I was 14. I started having […]
When things are good…
I get scared. I will consistently say how horrible September was for me. Things just kept getting worse and worse. And when I had one ounce of positivity within me and around me, it was easily taken away by something stressful or frustrating. Then my mind can’t really focus. I keep on second-guessing, worrying and […]
Fighting the negative.
Last month was horrible. So many unexpected events, so many disappointing moments, so many moments of stress and anxiety. I was tired of it and I’m still tired of it. It felt like the days were long and the weeks felt longer. And I just felt trapped in this never-ending cycle of bad sh*t happening. […]
Write it down.
I started to panic this morning, more like an hour ago. I was stressing out over getting paperwork and all the things I needed to get for my new job done. Then as I was driving to get errands done, more worries began appearing in my head. Then I began second-guessing my decision about the […]
I don’t fight for myself.
I know that I deserve better than whatever my life gives me, but I don’t fight for it. I settle. I don’t bicker, complain, whine, get furious or fight with my words…out loud. It’s all in my head or in this blog. I am terrified of fighting for myself or defending myself. & my past […]
I let depression take over.
I didn’t want to fight it tonight. I was tired of fighting it. If I kept on fighting it in this weak state, I’m in…it will get worse. I didn’t want to think about anything else except my feelings and focusing on what’s going on in :my mind, my heart and my body. Letting myself […]
dear me, love mel.
I don’t know what to feel today. Depression and anxiety are beating the crap out of me. I just needed to write a letter to myself. Apologizing to myself for letter depression and anxiety win. But we will continue to fight. Good night. -Mel
(RE)focus.
At some point within the last couple of days, I just felt like I was going to explode with the amount of thoughts circling around my head. I’m pretty sure that’s what my last post was all about. I wanted to spend this weekend (re)focusing. I watched the movie To All the Boys I’ve Loved […]
OVER being OVERwhelmed.
Why? When I feel like life starts to calm down and I can focus. Things happen, then thoughts appear, then it turns to one worry to many worries and then it leads to being OVERWHELMED. Then I can’t focus anymore. Why?? I can’t even count how many times I’ve been overwhelmed in the past 5-6 […]
