Tomorrow is the start of September. And I honestly don’t know how August just suddenly ended. Because I feel like I didn’t fully experience this month. It was a crazy month. It became a month of uncertainty. I didn’t know what each day consisted of. And there were nights where I would worry on what […]
Tag: self harm
Anxiety ruins my life.
I just had a first date with this guy I’ve been talking to, for about a month. I thought the date went well and I want to see him again. But immediately, as soon as I said bye to him. My anxiety kicked in. What if he didn’t like me? What if all the hype […]
I had a panic attack at my cousin’s wedding.
It’s been a couple of months since my last post. But I thought it was important to share what happened on the day of my cousin’s wedding. My last post talked about how I felt so out of place and felt like I didn’t belong in my family, when I was at the rehearsal dinner. […]
I Deserve Better.
It’s 4am on a work day. I hate waking up in the middle of the night and not falling back asleep. But I guess 4am is the time for realizations. Yesterday was a very frustrating day at work. It was like, a tiny thing in the universe was out of sync and it made my […]
Hurting myself physically when I’m hurting mentally.
Yesterday was rough. Physically, emotionally and mentally. And then it was pushed way over the edge. That moment it was pushed over the edge. I had to hold it. Had to hold my emotions inside. Once I was in a safe and private area, I…..exploded. Couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t stop crying. Kept on telling myself that […]
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